Freaked Out

For the first time in my life that I can remember I don't have a plan, I don't know what the next step is and it is really scareing my. What I do next isn't laid out in a clear path like it always has been. My calendar has no date for when school starts again, no fall break, no holiday breaks are penciled in yet. It's blank, just as my slate is for the rest of my life. A lot of people would envy this state of being that I'm in. I'm 24 and have no plans and nothing really tying me down, I should relish this opportunity but I can't seem to bring myself to that point. I think I am too rational and methodical in my thoughts. Whenever questions of what if pop into my head I quickly bring myself back down to earth and think about student loans, my future, what I want to achieve. All are things that will happen with time, I'm impatient. I want to get on with my life, whatever that next step may be. I know that God has a plan for me and my life, it's just hard to wait and wonder what that is.

Susanna told me to LIVE during this time. She's right, she's good at taking life by the horns and I greatly admire her for that and hope to learn from her how to be that way. But changing takes time and as I said before I'm impatient and sometimes it just seems easier to stay the same. Easier is not better and change can be good. Growing and evolving are necessary for becoming a better person. How do I do that without losing who I am?

Sometimes life seems to come quickly and other slowly. The next two weeks are basically unplanned. I don't have any finals and all I have to do is pack. I want to make the most of this time, but I have the feeling that I will just let it go by. Two weeks, fourteen days, seems like a long time but it's not. In two weeks I will have officially graduated and will be wondering "now what?". Assuming I don't find a job during the next two weeks I'll move back home to Carrollton, then what? I used to be afraid of dogs but not so much anymore. I think that fear has been replaced by the fear of the unknown. Hopefully one day I wll overcome this fear and embrace the opportunity to go forth without a clear path. One day, hopefully.

That's all folks!

Well we got no choice
All the girls and boys
Makin all that noise
'Cause they found new toys
Well we can't salute ya
Can't find a flag
If that don't suit ya
That's a drag

School's out for summer
School's out forever
School's been blown to pieces

No more pencils
No more books
No more teacher's dirty looks

Well we got no class
And we got no principles
And we got no innocence
We can't even think of a word that rhymes

School's out for summer
School's out forever
School's been blown to pieces

No more pencils
No more books
No more teacher's dirty looks

Out for summer
Out till fall
We might not go back at all

School's out forever
School's out for summer
School's out with fever
School's out completely

- Alice Cooper "School's Out"

I am number 7

Saw this on another blog and it's pretty accurate. I don't like the negative stuff too much but that's probably why it's called negative and not positive.

Your Life Path Number Is 7

7 You are a peaceful and affectionate soul... and by nature rather reserved and analytical. The overwhelming strength of the number 7 is reflected in the depth of thinking that is shown. You will garner knowledge from practically every source that you find. Intellectual, scientific and studious, you don't accept a premise until you have dissected the subject and arrived at you own independent conclusion. This is a very spiritual number and it often denotes a sort of spiritual wisdom that becomes apparent at a fairly early age. You need a good deal of quiet time to be with your own inner thoughts and dreams. You dislike crowds, noise and confusion. You are very thorough and complete in your work, the perfectionist who expects everyone else to be a meet a high standard of performance, too. You evaluate situations very quickly and with amazing accuracy. You rely heavily on your experiences and your intuition, rather than accepting advice from someone. Your hunches usually prove to be very accurate, and knowing this, you are one who tends to follow the directions they seem to guide. It's easy for you to detect deception and recognize insincere people. You aren't one to have a wide circle of friends, but once you accept someone as a friend, it's for life. You really aren't a very social person, and your reserve is often taken to be aloofness. You actually like being alone, away from the hustle and bustle of modern life. In many ways, you would have fit in better in much earlier times when the pace of life was less hectic. In the most negative use of the 7 energies, you can become very pessimistic, lackadaisical, quarrelsome, and secretive. A Life Path 7 individual who is not living life fully and gaining through experiences. A negative 7 is a hard person to live with because of a serious lack of consideration. The negative 7 is very selfish and spoiled. If you have any of the negative traits they are very difficult to get rid of. At your worst, you feel that the world really does owe you something - or in some way you aren't being fairly treated. Fortunately, the negative 7 is not the typical 7, at least not without some mitigating positive traits. This number is one that seems to have some major shifts from highs to lows. Stability in feelings may be elusive for you.

What Is Your Life Path Number?

Git 'er done!

Your Linguistic Profile:

50% General American English

45% Dixie

5% Yankee

0% Midwestern

0% Upper Midwestern

What Kind of American English Do You Speak?

Third post for the day

For the record I don't have braids.

Your Inner European is Russian!

Mysterious and exotic. You've got a great balance of danger and allure.

Who's Your Inner European?

Calendars

Wow, I was just looking at my Outlook calendar and had a very strange realization, I have no set dates in the future. Normally I'd have school already scheduled for August but not any more. Wow. I'm almost done with school for the foreseeable future, scary stuff.

To what do I listen?

I saw this on Katie's blog and thought it would be pretty cool to do. Thanks to an Itunes plugin you can see what music I'm listening to and how much I listen to it.

My Audioscrobbler Page

Another quiz for you blog readers

I made a Quiz for you! Take my Quiz! and then Check out the Scoreboard!

Answer to the Pop Quiz

So Ben is the only one that got the answer she was looking for, the phone book. Here is my sequence of answers and her probing questions.

Interviewer: How many gas stations in ATL?
Me: Call the city and ask how many business permits for gas stations there are.

Interviewer: What do you do if they're closed?
Me: Go online and look for the national gas station association or a trade group to see if they had a number or the number of stations per population and then calculate it.

Interviewer: What if the internet is down?
Me: Call a gas station and talk to the manager and ask if they know, and since the manager probably wouldn't I'd call BP corporate and ask them.

Interviewer: Good answers, never had anyone say get business permit information, but nobody ever gives the simple answer of looking in the yellow pages.

The moral of the story, if you need to know gas stations in less than 10 minutes look in the phone book (though I think that would take too long).

Another answer I thought of later is that I would ask in the office to see if we already had the data internally.

Pop Quiz

As many of you know, I had a case study interview yesterday with the Robert Charles Lesser, Co. At the conclusion of the case study the interviewer asked me a pop question which I'm going to now ask you.

A client calls and needs to know how many gas stations are in the City of Atlanta and you have 10 mins to find out. What would you do?

Put your answer in the comments but don't read everyone elses before posting your's.